This is a sad start of the week. Was rather happy yesterday until at night where I had an argument w a fren online. With an online/virtual fren, how can u be sure wat u are seeing/hearing is true??? Maybe its due to this new age of IT, pple are able to hide behind the shield of the internet and live in their world of make-belief. So, is trust the issue???
Then this morning, I heard some bad news from a fren abt her relationship. Relationship is such a fragile thing, a small crack is able to destroy it. Felt really sad for my fren and just wana say "Take good care of urself k" to her. Then I begin to wonder again if she had blinded trusted her bf and tat is everyone "blind by love" in relationships. So, is trust the issue???
I have no answers for the above, still puzzles me on wat and who we shld trust. When I think back to my younger days, things seem less complicated and my philosophy then was tat "If someone had bothered to lie to u, just believe them. Coz it takes much more effort to tell a lie (with all the weaving of tale) than to tell the truth...".
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Monday, March 20, 2006
MAPLESTORY GUILD BLOG
I am so excited today as I have just created a blog for my maplestory guild.
Ok, I will briefly explain so that u guys will understand k. A guild is something like a clan, grp of pple come together to basically to chit chat and hang out like frens in the game. Well, I started a guild in the game with a few frens last week. And over the weekend, I tot of organizing some events in the game for members to take part in...haha...really life like hor. So, then came the idea of starting a guild blog so that all members can browse and get the latest news on our guild. :)
Anyway, it was really fun creating the blog and getting other members to browse and leave msgs there. Looking forward to maintaining the blog :)
Ok, I will briefly explain so that u guys will understand k. A guild is something like a clan, grp of pple come together to basically to chit chat and hang out like frens in the game. Well, I started a guild in the game with a few frens last week. And over the weekend, I tot of organizing some events in the game for members to take part in...haha...really life like hor. So, then came the idea of starting a guild blog so that all members can browse and get the latest news on our guild. :)
Anyway, it was really fun creating the blog and getting other members to browse and leave msgs there. Looking forward to maintaining the blog :)
Friday, March 17, 2006
SHOPPING SPREE IN JB
Finally got a well deserved break tdy. Actually I specially took a day's leave to go JB w Kim for shopping :P
It has been a long time since the last we went. We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves then and came back with bags n bags of merchandise. It wasnt the fact that the things sold in Msia are slightly cheaper but for the mood for shopping tat prompted our buying spree. We have a bit more self control this time and controlled ourselves not to buy just everything we fancy.
I bought 2 pairs of shoes for myself, 2 pairs of shoes for my mum and a shirt and top for my 2nd bro. Haha, not a lot right? :P
It has been a long time since the last we went. We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves then and came back with bags n bags of merchandise. It wasnt the fact that the things sold in Msia are slightly cheaper but for the mood for shopping tat prompted our buying spree. We have a bit more self control this time and controlled ourselves not to buy just everything we fancy.
I bought 2 pairs of shoes for myself, 2 pairs of shoes for my mum and a shirt and top for my 2nd bro. Haha, not a lot right? :P
Thursday, March 16, 2006
TIME
Think I have been lazing in my own la-la land for way too long. Not really efficient nor enthusiastic at work anymore, and pretty much spend most of my working hours either chatting w frens (on msn) or w colleagues....and of coz the dozing off and napping part...sigh...
This is not the kind of working life I was looking forward to when I opted to study my part time degree. My goal was to be able to do something more than just administrative work, to actually climb the corporate ladder and excel in watever area I am working in. Of coz with it was the wish tat I will be able to earn more and lead the kind of luxurious lifestyle tat most pple yearn.
Not too sure wat happened, but my view and thinking seems to have changed drastically after I returned from Perth last nov...instead of moving forward to accept and undertake new challenges, I am retreating backwards to take things slowly and actually demanding so much less of myself. I have the view now tat there are so much more things tat are more impt than work, career and money. Not tat the 3 are not impt, but I believe tat lifestyle is essential...the way we lead our lives, who n how we spend our time with, whether u feel happy deep inside, whether u end of the day by thinking tat "Oh, today was a day well spent and I feel great!".
Now, my frens and pple ard me seems to have surpassed me in the level of enthusiasm at their work and their ambitious effort to excel in their job and career. Am I lagging behind??? Sigh, many a times I qs myself if I shld once again psycho myself back into the "old me" but then I contradict tat wat I need now is TIME.
I need TIME to gain enuff experience in order to move to a pasture with greener grass.
I need TIME to sharpen my skills and become a professional in the work I do.
I need TIME to build strong working relationships with colleagues.
I need TIME to find better opportunities out there.
I need TIME to stabilize my career and get a steady income.
I need TIME to take up all the courses that I want to do and learn.
I need TIME to open my heart to believe that true love exist.
I need TIME to find the One and learn to trust and love him.
I need TIME to learn to rely on the One and not carry the burden of life on my own shoulders.
If I do not have the TIME to do the above, I will have to learn to live with it...."life is not a bed of roses"...
This is not the kind of working life I was looking forward to when I opted to study my part time degree. My goal was to be able to do something more than just administrative work, to actually climb the corporate ladder and excel in watever area I am working in. Of coz with it was the wish tat I will be able to earn more and lead the kind of luxurious lifestyle tat most pple yearn.
Not too sure wat happened, but my view and thinking seems to have changed drastically after I returned from Perth last nov...instead of moving forward to accept and undertake new challenges, I am retreating backwards to take things slowly and actually demanding so much less of myself. I have the view now tat there are so much more things tat are more impt than work, career and money. Not tat the 3 are not impt, but I believe tat lifestyle is essential...the way we lead our lives, who n how we spend our time with, whether u feel happy deep inside, whether u end of the day by thinking tat "Oh, today was a day well spent and I feel great!".
Now, my frens and pple ard me seems to have surpassed me in the level of enthusiasm at their work and their ambitious effort to excel in their job and career. Am I lagging behind??? Sigh, many a times I qs myself if I shld once again psycho myself back into the "old me" but then I contradict tat wat I need now is TIME.
I need TIME to gain enuff experience in order to move to a pasture with greener grass.
I need TIME to sharpen my skills and become a professional in the work I do.
I need TIME to build strong working relationships with colleagues.
I need TIME to find better opportunities out there.
I need TIME to stabilize my career and get a steady income.
I need TIME to take up all the courses that I want to do and learn.
I need TIME to open my heart to believe that true love exist.
I need TIME to find the One and learn to trust and love him.
I need TIME to learn to rely on the One and not carry the burden of life on my own shoulders.
If I do not have the TIME to do the above, I will have to learn to live with it...."life is not a bed of roses"...
Monday, March 13, 2006
VIRTUAL WORLD
Recently got to know a lot of online frens from Maplestory. It was fun playing the game and chatting w them at the same time but somehow, one will jus wonder how much truth and lies are there in such friendships. Dun we always hear stories tat pple like to tell lies when in the virtual world of their own make-believe. Call me skeptical, but there is always a doubt in my mind to wat I choose to believe. Maybe it is self protection method but I think this kind of alertness to the dangers of the virtual world is important.
However, I do understand the temptation to believe and our hope to find kindred spirits in the virtual world. Sometimes, it is a bliss to escape into the virtual world but we do have to face reality in the end. So, an advice to all...we all have to be wary...u can find good frens from the web but u could also meet cheats and liars...so take care not to get hurt.
However, I do understand the temptation to believe and our hope to find kindred spirits in the virtual world. Sometimes, it is a bliss to escape into the virtual world but we do have to face reality in the end. So, an advice to all...we all have to be wary...u can find good frens from the web but u could also meet cheats and liars...so take care not to get hurt.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
INNER ME???
This is my fren, Mabel's protrayal of me...(wat a cute doodle, right? but it somehow doesn't resemble me...)Then I told Mabel abt it and she amended it to this...yah, looks much nicer now
Now this is one on Kim, haha...looks really good...now I jealous liao...
Monday, February 27, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
BAD NIGHT
Had problem sleeping last night...u know how we toss n turn at night w/o our really being aware of it? Well, my incredible stiff neck made sure I dun forget its existence even when I am sleeping...
I normally sleep sideways but becoz of my neck I slept flat down, head face upwards...but when I tried to move my head on the pillow at night...it just wont move...end up I hv to use my hand to turn my head...and the movement caused pain too. It also took an effort to get up from bed jus now...gosh, this is just a torture!
Had problem sleeping last night...u know how we toss n turn at night w/o our really being aware of it? Well, my incredible stiff neck made sure I dun forget its existence even when I am sleeping...
I normally sleep sideways but becoz of my neck I slept flat down, head face upwards...but when I tried to move my head on the pillow at night...it just wont move...end up I hv to use my hand to turn my head...and the movement caused pain too. It also took an effort to get up from bed jus now...gosh, this is just a torture!
Saturday, February 25, 2006
ATTACK OF THE SUPER STIFF NECK
I was initially looking forward to meeting frens for steamboat tonight but super suay....gena attack of the super stiff neck!
Either I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or tat I am indeed heaty (as proclaimed by my mum), but I seemed to have a twisted neck that cannot be turn (any ways!)...and every movement puts a strain at the back of my neck all the way down to my shoulders!
"PAIN" is the only word to describe the day...by afternoon, my condition has worsened such that an effort to stand up from a chair would require a hand supporting my head by the chin to enable me to stand up w/o straining my neck...haiz...suay suay double suay.
Then my parents came back n asked if I wana go swimming w Charmaine....IN MY CONDITION!!!!!....wat were they thinking??? I might just drown coz I cant move my head up to catch my breath...think I was a bit nasty when I told my mum no...but who would be in a good mood anyway in this kind of condition?!!!
So, I ended up cancelling the steamboat appt and went to bed from 6pm to 9pm...coz by 6pm, it takes an effort to just support my head upright...sob sob....its still painful now....
I was initially looking forward to meeting frens for steamboat tonight but super suay....gena attack of the super stiff neck!
Either I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or tat I am indeed heaty (as proclaimed by my mum), but I seemed to have a twisted neck that cannot be turn (any ways!)...and every movement puts a strain at the back of my neck all the way down to my shoulders!
"PAIN" is the only word to describe the day...by afternoon, my condition has worsened such that an effort to stand up from a chair would require a hand supporting my head by the chin to enable me to stand up w/o straining my neck...haiz...suay suay double suay.
Then my parents came back n asked if I wana go swimming w Charmaine....IN MY CONDITION!!!!!....wat were they thinking??? I might just drown coz I cant move my head up to catch my breath...think I was a bit nasty when I told my mum no...but who would be in a good mood anyway in this kind of condition?!!!
So, I ended up cancelling the steamboat appt and went to bed from 6pm to 9pm...coz by 6pm, it takes an effort to just support my head upright...sob sob....its still painful now....
Friday, February 24, 2006
BLOG - AN ANGER OUTLET???
Before I started a blog myself, I never knew wat "blog" means. Being an almost complete IT idiot, I have no idea how to surf and read others' blogs, much less, how to start one.
So, I started by treating this as a diary to write down events and things in my life. Of course, in the process, some of my frens might be bored by the mundane things mentioned coz my life is not tat interesting/happening anyway. But being my good frens, I guessed u all have endured reading my entries anyway.
Recently, I read some other blogs and realised tat some can be really forward and daring to put their views n opinions in their blogs. Some even vented their pent-up anger by writing some harsh words towards pple. Do these bloggers really want the objects of their anger to see their blogs n feel guilty? But I wonder, is this wat blog is really meant for? A channel to vent anger? I guess this is a debatable point...of coz, I do not hv the answer myself....but I do hope tat I will not do tat in future no matter how upset I am. In my opinion, blog is a space where we "share" thoughts and views, and probably watever is happening in our lives...so I do hope that my frens will hv a good time reading my blog :)
Before I started a blog myself, I never knew wat "blog" means. Being an almost complete IT idiot, I have no idea how to surf and read others' blogs, much less, how to start one.
So, I started by treating this as a diary to write down events and things in my life. Of course, in the process, some of my frens might be bored by the mundane things mentioned coz my life is not tat interesting/happening anyway. But being my good frens, I guessed u all have endured reading my entries anyway.
Recently, I read some other blogs and realised tat some can be really forward and daring to put their views n opinions in their blogs. Some even vented their pent-up anger by writing some harsh words towards pple. Do these bloggers really want the objects of their anger to see their blogs n feel guilty? But I wonder, is this wat blog is really meant for? A channel to vent anger? I guess this is a debatable point...of coz, I do not hv the answer myself....but I do hope tat I will not do tat in future no matter how upset I am. In my opinion, blog is a space where we "share" thoughts and views, and probably watever is happening in our lives...so I do hope that my frens will hv a good time reading my blog :)
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